If I was there

i hate that there was a life before me,

people who knew you differently,

memories i'll never be a part of,

and versions of you i'll never get to meet.

i know it's not fair to you,

to be hurt by things you cannot change.

but sometimes i wish

i could go back in time

and find you a little sooner.

maybe then

i wouldn't have to wonder

if i'm as special as i want to be,

or if someone before me.

already was