Roads

what should I count more?

the drops in the ocean -

or the stars swallowed by the blackholes.

what will cause an end to it

the wait.

the agony.

the confusion.

the comparison.

the rankings.

the sweet nothings;

were nothings afterall

who dares?

I would burn the world to keep you safe

and let the fire swallow me whole

why?

I don't wanna be a reason at all

for the goods and the bads and the sweet nothings

as if the empty roads didn't scream

at me, like it did to her

oh she has roads, big roads, roads belonging to her

I only had you

pathetic as it is

it didn't occur a little before

just when I had it all

it slipped,

no, it was snatched; taken away

What do I do with the remains ?

take them with you,

bury it beside her roads

you never thought you will feel this way ?

oh and I never thought you will ever feel any different way.

Presence, I know there was none,of me.

But she..

she was there ever since

her presence faded in and out

and when I was to smile at you

you had to look away just then.

Pleasures me to see you smile,

just not back at mine

Mean as it is.

it burns me red raw,

liquid iron inside the bones

all of it

cause I loved

loved

now I find your ghost in

the empty skies,

they mock me.

The breeze carries,

bitter whispers.

The flowers look down disappointed

it's just when your skin gets caught

between the hinges of the old rusted door

you get a vaccine shot for it ..

I get nothing, just a shot...

a bullet wound stabbed deep in my spinals.